August
2, 2012
To
Whom This May Concern:
It sickens me to write to you once again, but I have
no choice. Time continues to
pass and I cannot let you forget about Lauren. Rebecca recently said she holds close those
people who knew Lauren. I realized in that moment that our lives
will be forever defined as the time before Lauren disappeared and the time after.
Another thing you and I
share, the before and the after.
For me, living without Lauren, it’s the little things in my day-to-day
life which are the most difficult.
The things that aren’t mentioned.
Getting mail addressed to Lauren, walking past her room just as she left
it the last time she was home, still waiting for her return. The unpacked boxes I cannot bear to
move. The notice Rob has hidden
away among so many other pieces of mail, from the Department of Motor
Vehicles. It’s Lauren’s. It arrived shortly before her 21st
birthday. We try to shield each
other from more pain. It is
impossible to do.
On June 4, 2011, we were hoping for Lauren’s
rescue. That’s what the
Bloomington Police Department was hoping for as well. As time passed, we were hoping for Lauren’s recovery. Today we are waiting to find out if the
remains found in the White River belong to Lauren. We wait along with other families of missing loved ones. It could take as long as eight
weeks. That’s 80,640 minutes of
agony. We are waiting to find out
if a skull found in the White River might be Lauren’s. It’s chilling to say the words. I find it incomprehensible that if by
chance you are reading this, you know the answer already. I recently read that the White River is 362 miles long. I am guessing that if you placed Lauren
in a body of water, the current could have relocated her to another area. I can’t say that I have read anything about decomposition or
what might happen to a body that has been in water for over a year. Though this past year has taught me things
I never would have expected to learn, decomposition is one area I refuse to
explore. Lauren’s DNA and dental records are on
file with CODIS. “CODIS
is the acronym for the “Combined DNA Index System” and is the generic term used
to describe the FBI’s program of support for criminal justice DNA databases as
well as the software used to run those databases. The National DNA Index System
or NDIS is considered one part of CODIS, the national level, containing the DNA
profiles contributed by federal, state, and local participating forensic
laboratories.” We continue to wait for the results from the Marion County
coroner’s office.
You may or may not
be a parent. Somehow I doubt that
you are a parent. I guarantee you
have no idea what it’s like, waiting to find out if the remains recovered from
any number of places are those of your child. I hope I am making you uncomfortable. I hope you have as many sleepless
nights as I have. I hope that some
day, your parents, your siblings, your friends will all be in a courtroom when
your true self is revealed, the self which was born on June 3, 2011 when you took
Lauren from us.
We were shocked when several people hired
attorneys within days of Lauren’s disappearance. Five young men, five attorneys. I’m still not sure why they felt
it was necessary. I know hiring an
attorney is not an admission of guilt, however it leads me to believe there was
something to hide. Questions
remain unanswered and law enforcement polygraphs remain untaken. We are still without Lauren. Did you hire an attorney? I wonder if you are among those
who continue to refuse to cooperate with the Bloomington Police
Department. You can well imagine,
a year later, those conducting the investigation have more questions which need
to be answered. And yet those that
could help, refuse to do so.
Who are you? Did you go on
any searches? Maybe you were
no longer in Bloomington as thousands helped look for Lauren. Did you use Lauren’s disappearance to
your advantage? Have we
met? Time will tell. So many questions. I will never forgive those who could have helped and did
not. Though I doubt my sentiments
matter to you, I will never forget you for as long as I live. I hope that every
time you look into a mirror you remember the choices you made on June 3,
2011. I hope with every breath you
take, you remember Lauren.
We are grateful to all those who
continue to make sure Lauren’s tragic story stays alive. There are many who stand beside us in
our quest for answers. No
matter what happened on June 3, 2011, the fact that Lauren seemingly vanished
into thin air is undeniable and for that you
are responsible. I trust that Lauren
will have her day and justice will be served. Until that time, we remain steadfast in our search for
answers which will lead us to Lauren.
Charlene Spierer
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If you have any information regarding
Lauren’s disappearance, please contact us.
Bloomington
Police Department – 812.339.4477
helpfindlauren@gmail.com
Find Lauren – PO
Box 1226 – Bloomington, Indiana 47402
Beau Dietl &
Associates – 800.777.9366
Missing and loving you,
Lauren, every second of every day.
Mom, Dad and Rebecca
